There's a danger you've mistaken your emotional dependency
and gratitude for love.
One of the most intense struggles people encounter is the problem of emotional dependency
which can range from a powerful romantic attachment to a platonic friendship that has become too ingrown and possessive.
Within that group, the drop in empathy occurred among those who, on a questionnaire, cited intense emotional dependency
on their partner and insecurity about the relationship.
You may think there's no reason to feel guilty about your emotional dependency
on him but your husband may not see it this way.
Some men who cited predisposing risks for incest said that they had intentionally used intensive caretaking to groom their daughters for sexual involvement by first fostering emotional dependency
and the acceptance of intimate physical touch.